EMDR has not worked for me. I have C-PTSD and when I try it, I either feel locked up and can't access anything. . . or else I have painful emotional reactions that are far too upsetting to contain - and then I suffer for days between sessions. This happens regardless of having learned coping skills and going through DBT. I am somewhat dissociative, and I think that may be my problem. At some point, I tend to "lose" my normal sense of self - along with the skills I know - and become like a child being traumatized in the past who can't protect herself and is all alone. It feels retraumatizing. I can't keep my normal adult self there when it happens. We don't do EMDR anymore for those reasons.
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