i have been in that dark place myself. i hate to hear that you are having such a terrible time. i hope these words will help you....

Angels above please help me,
God bless me with your grace,
help find a way to leave this awful place.
Shine your light upon me,
embrace me with your love,
give me the strength to endure,
and the power to over come.

I wrote that as a plea when I was exactly where you are. I would say that over and over to myself and to God. He listened. I still battle with depression but I am alive. and to be alive is to feel. You can't recognize the good in life if you haven't known the bad. try to find happiness in even the smallest things and bigger things will follow. I wish you the best and send lots of love your way. One good thing you have found is this place. Just having support and people around you that understand is a great comfort to me.