remembering the abuse is like reliving all over again. i have had flashbacks over the years too numerous to count. i am just very thankful to have survived the ordeal and to become a parent myself. 15 years of counseling brought me to this point in life where i can say i still remember some of it but it doesn't affect me or my life anymore. without a doubt you will someday be able to move on past this. just keep reminding yourself how strong you are and how many people you have behind you to get you through it.