I know what you mean..

when you are making others happy, it makes you feel like you are doing something positive and right, which i guess brings happiness.

You're right.. i guess we all just expect to be happy all the time..and of course it doesn't work that way, and yea. We are definitely disappointed..
but it really is like seasons.

its just so hard to accept it..

but anyway, i was just kidding ..

i know we are supposed to be happy, just not all the time.. we aren't THAT deserving.. lol

being alone definitely makes depression worse.. i guess being at work or school or wherever, there are other things that occupy the mind.
but at home, alone, as i am now, and it's cloudy and raining.. it's just not helping.

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