I HAVE TRIED OVER AND OVER TO EXPRESS HOW I FEEL AT TIMES BUT I FEEL HAPPY BUT ON THE OUTSIDE I LOOK SAD ITS LIKE I CAN'T EXPRESS HAPPINESS. IT SOMETIMES DRAWS A WEDGE IN MY REALTIONSDHIPS BECAUSE PEOPLE THINK I AM UNGRATEFUL. ALL MY LIFE I HAVE BEEN TOLD NOT TO SMILE OR SHOW EMOTIONS . I TRY TO HUG AND KISS MY CHILDREN BUT SOMETIMES I JUST REATHER NOT SHOW EMOTIONS . HOW CAN I CHANGE THIS FEELING. SO I WON'T LOSE MY FAMILY AND FRIENDS/. <font color="yellow"> </font>