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Originally Posted by Breadfish
Are there any of you with PTSD who can't throw away a painful reminder? In the institution I was a subject of medical torture I had a stress ball with me for the pain. Of course they would place it just out of my reach during sessions but in between sessions I squeezed it.
I still have it. I threw it out of the window twice but I can't stand not having it so I go outside and look for it. I look at it sometimes or hold it (and I don't know why I do it because it hurts and makes me feel bad) although I've never squeezed it again.
Does anyone recognize this?
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Maybe I am reading this wrong but that ball situation sounds like a ***** move from a therapist with control issues.
I've been at this a long time and after all these years~ I have pretty much tossed all the mementoes I would love to have today. Memories before my trauma. Now, have box that doesn't belong to me. Filled with some facts that might bring me peace.
Just for fun.
My box~ I might carry for spite if I ever find my peace. Return it~ when all is said and done.
This is just my opinion but if I knew then what I know now and if I had a ball that helped me through the pain~ It would be the last thing I threw away. I'd get rid of my papers first. Once the facts have been dealt with ~ then I'd deal with the pleasures.
Of course~ I've just started therapy so I wouldn't take me too seriously.