Hey, life_in_grey, and welcome to Psych Central! I am no expert on dreams, but here's a few things to think about: Are you truly worried you will end up in a facility like your friend? Are you worried people will not be able to help you with your panic attacks and any other problems? That their treatment will be inappropriate and ineffective? And unprofessional? And that it will even be forced on you? Do you see some pastors as possible hypocrites, or maybe less harshly as "the blind leading the blind"? Or that they are not really trained enough to really treat more serious problems?

Just some thoughts....

Maybe other folks will have some other ideas.