So, this is something I've been thinking about, and another thread about bringing things to therapy for comfort is making me wonder...how did you manage to get comfortable enough to do things like that?

I have felt so much like I wanted to take a teddy bear with me (it's gotten as far as in my car in the parking lot), but I couldn't get myself to actually bring it in, even though it would be comforting. There's a pillow that sits next to me on the couch that I would love to pick up and hug/hide behind sometimes. And there's a blanket there, as well, that I also would love to curl up with. I also have wanted to tuck my feet up underneath me and try to relax, or move to the other side of the couch and sit nearer to my T, but I can't. I feel too self-conscious.

I almost feel like those things aren't allowed, that I should sit there like a statue and be put together and professional. I know this isn't my T's fault, because she is super relaxed. It's all me. And I don't know how to change it.

Any ideas? How did you start feeling more comfortable? I've been seeing my T for over two years, and yet, I haven't been able to yet. How long did it take to get that comfortable?