Thanks so much Sabau. I know there aren't any answers. There's no way to fix what already happened and if my mum is still having paranoid thoughts she would never get help. It's strange... I hardly ever think about it. I saw my parents yesterday, though, and my mum hasn't been feeling well physically and it made me worry about her and I was seeing her as being so vulnerable.. the way I used to see her when I was a teenager, so I think that's why all this stuff ended up in the forefront of my mind when I got home. I couldn't sleep last night and I was thinking about all of it for the first time in such a long time. It felt cathartic just to write about it and put it all out there. Thanks for being so kind. It means a lot to me.