Hey guys,
I stopped taking anti-psychotics a little over a month ago, with the support and approval of my psychiatrist. For whatever reason, I have been doing even better. I don't want to talk about anything else regarding that though. The downfall is, I'm worried about my depression getting a little high and low. I have continued the use of Lamictal, because it's my safety net in terms of preventing an episode. I chose to stay on the mood stabilizer for this reason.

However a week or two ago, I had dealt with a lot of emotional issues, a lot of negative feelings and things happening in my life. I was overwhelmed with the strength and depth of my feelings, that they had became after discontinuing medication. The medication was completely out of my blood perhaps. I had weekend of a lot of highs and lows in depression. Derealization also occurs bad when I feel like **** physically and emotionally. I was having physical health issues, and some emotional turmoil. I felt a tiniest bit of hypomania, or atleast on the edge of not being okay mentally, in public (this occured at my job before I clocked in). It all stopped a day after.

I'm seeking an anti-depressant that could mediate my depressive disorder. I'm Schizoaffective Depressive type. I can suffer from chronic depression, especially when experiencing episodes. I read that as stress causes bipolar relapses, emotional trauma causes schizo relapses. I think I need a mood-stabilizing anti-depressant. I would HIGHLY prefer one where sexual dysfunction and libido ARE NOT affected. My libido and sexual functionality has skyrocketed, and I would choose it over being on an anti-depressant. I read Wellbutrin doesn't affect libido much. However I'm not sure how that works with SZA disorder. I just need a great anti-depressant to nullify these lows in my behavior and wellbeing. I have a lot of highs now, as my personality as bursted with energy. So I have the energy sometimes to feel great, and I think the bad lows are causing chemical imbalances, which for all I know could cause me to relapse.

Please give me some advice. I appreciate everything guys! My depression has been the main concern of my psychiatrist, who I have been seeing for a year and a half now. He never talks about the schizophrenia really, just the depression. He thinks I'm depressed a lot.