Hey jane, yea I relate completely. T told me that I'm probably expecting her to tell me to get out, I said yes! She said she wouldn't do that.. Damn it. I don't want to care, but I do. Oh it's confusing. I don't think it gives me progress either, in terms of myself.
It may give progress in trusting T that they value and care enough to be there and deal with what I throw out? Maybe that's the progress that has to happen before the rest at the moment?