I posted earlier in the new member group, I didn't feel comfortable airing all this in a non addiction forum. OK deep breath here we go. I am an alcoholic, I know this because I chose to drink when ever I have the opportunity. I drink first thing in the morning when my wife and kids are gone. Or at night when I am waiting for my wife to get home. It used to be taboo for me to engage in this behavior when the kids are home. But that has gone by the way side in recent weeks. I was extremely verbally abusive to my wife the other night, happens to be the same night I blatantly called in sick, sounding drunk. I also am addicted to synthetic pot, and I use both of these substances to fuel my number addiction., Internet porn. Ugh....but despite it all I'm a good person and people tend to think I'm squeaky clean and likeable. I just have become this mess of addictions that all feed off of each other.