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onlyme76 · Jul 12, 2014, 07:49 AM

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Originally Posted by Little Jay

I'm losing it. I need help but there's so many reasons to just keep it to myself. I don't want to hurt everyone. I can't afford to have time off work, I don't want to go back to hospital. I don't want to lose my job from all the time off. I just have become obsessed with suicide. I have so many reasons not to, and I know it's selfish. I have a battle going on inside of me because sometimes I just don't want to live like this any more, then sometimes I look at my family and those I love and I feel so guilty for even thinking about it. If I make a spur of the moment decision I don't want to regret it but I have to keep it to myself. I'm just losing it, I just don't know what to do any more. I know I need help, maybe I should call someone. I don't know what I'd say though.

Hey, I know exactly what u mean, I feel the same way. My doctor took me off work and I was admitted to da hospital. He had me off so long and guess what I lost my which made me feel worse than I already was feeling. And on top of that the meds wasn't working and I was still thinking of hurting myself. I Think you should tell someone but I understand but that's not the answer for us. I felt and still feel guilty when I look at or think about my children. But yes talk to someone. I hope gets better (for both of us) because I have some rough days and before this I had to keep it all in too.