I am most likely in a super small minority being an older man who thinks I may have anorexia. I don't have all the classic signs like the young girls. The biggest sign is this underlying fear of gaining weight... kind of subconteous that comes on when I see my weight average going up.

This fear not only drives me to eat less and skip meals but gives me will power beyond measure to walk right by cookies and chocolate and donuts without any kind of temptation.

I went on a small diet a couple years ago after a couple pairs of pants buttons popped off.... middle age spread coming on. I hit 141, the highest recorded weight ever. I refused to let this happen. So I lost 15 pounds and was satisfied being at 127 and kept it off for 6 months. Then my weight average went up one pound and "bang" Nooo! got a shot of fear and been on a downward spiral since.

I am averaging 119.5 right now, hitting weight readings between 117.5 and 121.5 depending on hydration and the last time I used the bathroom...eating... whatever.

I love the way I look. I'm not like the young girls who look at their boney little body and still think thier fat. For me, its just an underlying fear to gain weight and I ask myself when or at what weight is the fear of the dehibilatating side affects of anorexia going to out weigh the fear of gaining weight... so I can pig out without feeling guilty or thinking I need to then skip my next meal. I kind of chuckle at this but I'm sure this isn't funny. I'm amazed at how little I can eat and make it through the day just fine.

Oryan