Hi Little Jay. I know how you feel. I am in many ways in the same situation as you. I have to work but work is driving me crazy. You do need to reach out to someone you can trust. You definitely should seek help. It would be good to find a pdoc, therapist, try medication, anything to help. Do not be embarrassed or ashamed. This is an illness that needs to be treated. You are a good person and you deserve help for your situation. You don't need to tell people who would cause you more harm, just the people you trust. Seek help and treatment for yourself. And of course, talk to us here on pc. Message me anytime. God bless.