Its not a healthy relationship for him to be treating you this way. Pushing and shoving are not ok. Save up money and get out, maybe even get a second job for while so you can afford it. Stay with family or a friend. You deserve so much better. I think sometimes we allow people to treat us like crap because we don't think deserve any better. Love yourself. I once heard we take relationships with people who love us only slightly better than we love ourself. We take the crap because we don't love ourself enough to get out. I don't know if it is true for everyone but for me I would say I agree. I have been in abusive relationships and realize now I didn't leave because I didn't love myself enough to say I deserve better. You deserve better! I hope everything works out for you. Take care and do whats best for you and your emotional wellbeing.