Thanks for your help... I made my appointment today - was an hour early but not late LOL...

Pounding headach right now and tummy hurts..

I haven't disassociated in years but am now cause FINALLY all the secrets can come out.. (my dad has passed, my pedophile has passed, my son moved out in Jan so I'm not as worried about him - he's grown 22, I'm on disability so not dealing with working)

So I think I am going to feel this way for awhile as I allow myself to sort thru things... I need to do some of things I used to do when I disassociated before - like the post it's and keeping a calendar always... I don't think I can talk about these "secrets" without disassociating... but that's Ok..

Wish me luck everyone,,,, I am continuing on the healing journey...

I so like this T...