A few months ago, I wanted to live, I had plans, I wanted to overcome or control my depression and achieve things in life.

Now I've given up, there's some kind of 'block' in my head that prevents me from thinking about the future anymore. It's like I can't see myself living for too much longer, as if time itself will stop. I can't imagine myself as an older person, nor do I care anymore.

I'm starting to feel like this just 'normal' for me, and there's nothing I can do about it. I don't know why I'm living, but I will continue to live, because I don't honestly care.

I can't explain it any better, I've just gone numb. It's like I've subconsciously given up.

Scratch that, I get it now, I don't know what I'm feeling, I need someone to tell me..... or not.... because It doesn't matter....