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Originally Posted by brokenentity
I understand. I don't want more friends, In fact I'm happy with the ones I do have, They're enough for me. But I can't seem to connect emotionally with them, sometimes It's my fault, sometimes it goes over their heads. Sometimes I try to be subtle, but they just don't get it. I am forced to be not so subtle, and it sort of ruins it. I expect them to pick up on things, but they just don't.
I do have a lot of interests that are in common with many people, movies, videogames, music, mysteries, that's great but it leaves me with an empty feeling afterwards, like they don't really know me. I don't want my identify to be defined by my interests/hobbies or tastes, I want people to know me for what I am.
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The problem here, as I see it, Brokenentity is that a person's identity is "built" from many things. In other words, there are many facets to it. It's sort-of like a pyramid. So all of those interests you mention are parts (or facets) of your over-all identity. But at the base is who you yourself see yourself to be. And if you cannot show that part of yourself to the world, then the fact that you can show the rest of your interests, still leaves you feeling empty. It's like the base of the pyramid is still buried in the sand. Hopefully soon, the "base of your pyramid" can be uncovered & shown to the rest of the world, along with your other interests. Then I feel certain you will feel whole.