I feel like eating something, but when I look at food I have no appetite what so ever. But I usually eat like a cow.
I went back into my room, looked out the window to get fresh air and my eyes started watering up and I felt like crying. I had no reason for it.
I asked myself,
"Is it nothing I'm feeling, or is it pain."
"Have I been alone for too long?" I stayed home, and I usually go out as I feel the best doing so. Right now I feel like I'm wasting my time at home.
At that moment when I nearly cried, I felt different, I became aware of a different emotion I couldn't tell. It was definitely some kind of pain, I don't know. I'm painful and emotionless.
I feel hopeless.