I never have told anyone, not a single soul, but I too have these thoughts!

I also have never really been suicidal either. I have wanted to die, many, many times... But not by my own hand.

However, I can't even count how many times I have envisioned hanging myself, or jumping off a building. It's weird, since I am not suicidal!?

Anyway, when I get depressed, or really irritable and angry at life, I get the flash of a mental image of hanging myself or jumping off a building, those are the two ways I envision dying for some reason. I don't really WANT to do these things, but I have these thoughts anyway, when I'm in a horrible mood.

I am so thankful that you started this discussion, Hallie, as I have kept it a dark secret from all, because I feared what people would think.