The number 1 and greatest thing I despise in life is suffering.

Now go ahead and give your opinion on what I'm about to say here which is that I feel that struggles in life are pointless setbacks and nothing more. If you are going to say something such as that struggles are opportunities for you to grow and push yourself further in life, the fact of the matter is that you can grow and push yourself just as much (and even further) without struggles in life through pure pleasure alone.

For example, with my pursuit of being a composer, my struggle is depression. If it weren't for my depression, I would be able to push myself to the absolute and dedicate practically all my time everyday in learning and such to compose. Sure, right now despite my depression, I could force myself to pursue this dream anyway. But the fact of the matter is that my pursuit would be hampered and that because I have depression, I have lost the greatest part of me as a composer (pleasure).

Pleasure is the greatest part of you and I will provide an argument supporting so. If you had the choice to be the dumbest person on earth with all the pleasure in the world or be someone who is depressed and highly intelligent, which would you choose? I'm quite sure you would choose to be the person with all the pleasure in the world because of the fact that your emotional health comes 1st above some stupid intelligence. Your health obviously comes 1st above anything you do in life or any other amazing capability besides pleasure that your mind has and to sacrifice your pleasure (emotional health) for such things would be foolish (unless if you value someone else's life so much that you are willing to make that sacrifice if it meant saving that person's life). Therefore, I think you can see now why I view pleasure as the greatest part of you and how that makes you a "god-like" being in a sense.

Finally, I hate depression and struggles so much that if, let's pretend, I were to be one of the greatest composers who has earned the title and message to the world of "A young man who faced and accepted a struggle of depression that made him great," I would utterly despise this title. I would instead choose a different title (a different message to the world) of "Struggles and suffering in life is worthless and a life of basically pure pleasure and no struggles or suffering is what makes you great. Therefore, avoid struggles and suffering at all costs and be god-like and superior to these worthless things and become a god through the greatest thing a human being can have (pleasure)."

If I was the greatest composer right now in front of the world, I would purposely say that I had a life of practically pure pleasure with no depression and little struggles in life. I would say this despite the fact that I have and continue to have chronic depression.

This life seems to want to force its inferior message upon people that "Suffering is an inevitable part of life and just has to be accepted" as well as that "The greatest people in life had struggles and depression." I utterly despise these messages and want to portray a different message (a superior) message of my own that goes against these loathsome messages of life. It would be a message that creates a different reality I want (a god-like reality in which we all are gods superior to suffering and such and have all the pleasure in the world). It would be that message of my own that I just quoted above.