well, I made it to tea and had a great time with the cousin. I didn't really have to but told her in a positive way about my bipolar. She told me about a severe depression she had after a divorce. She said she is there for me if I get down again or really at anytime. So hooray, I am on a roll. LOL. Now I need to focus on getting a shower tonight so I will be ready to try to go to church and my husband's small birthday casual dinner. One small victory at a time. Thanks for all of the hugs. Doesn't it help so much to know we are not alone?