Every time you try to hurt yourself..picture your loved ones being hurt by your death and feeling suicidal themselves because they lost you and don't want to carry on. This I what I do. I have struggled for the past 6 months with rocking my boat. It is so scary but I refuse to let it win. Nothing is certain in life but do not be selfish. Others need you. I have learned this.
Hang in there..life can be wonderful as well as painful..two sides to every coin.
ali