Hey. I cry a little.

Usually I'm a mess when I cry. Tears and snot all over. Have to blow my nose a great deal and make one hell of a racket.

But I don't do that with him. I cry, but it is different. No sobs. No snot. Just wet eyes. I'm not sure why its different or what it signifies.

Last time was a bit different. More hysterica me, I guess.

One of the hardest things for me is to be in touch with and kind of expressing how I'm feeling in the moment without trying to cling to or push away. How quickly my mood changes frightens me. And I worry its either ununderstandable or too transparent. Like you can read my thoughts and feelings and everything right there from my face.

I imagine this will just be for a time rather than forever. But yeah, sometimes people need to cry.