Often times he has told me to "be kind to yourself; do fun things". What the hell does that mean?

I was never allowed to have fun or relax. Always on guard. So, I have been giving this great thought and giving it a go. Little by little I am learning. It's kind of fun. I am giving myself permission to screw up. I am making a true effort to have fun and enjoy life while I am alive. Starting to plan things and expand my life. Experiencing pleasure; which happens to be a very important part of life...so I am told. It's true. Try it. It feels so good to let the world in....the good parts.

I highly recommend giving this some thought and acting on it or at least trying. We really are worth it and are deserving!