i guess i have lost your point - for i would not choose to be the dumbest person in the world w/ a whole bunch of pleasure - i'd pick to be intelligent and depressed - & i'm not lying. for if i was dumb how would i know i was pleased or not - i would just be. at least being intelligent you realize what's happening. is that what you want or are saying? - to just be mindless?
pleasure is a part of a spectrum of emotions - but how can one have just one side of such a spectrum? how can i know i'm having pleasure if i've never had pain? there are no 'gods' superior to pain - don't you think god himself experienced pain when man decided to go against him?
i'm sorry - i am a depressive, but i've never been classified as being one - so, i'm sure, i do not understand all that you are going through. but it seems you are liking asking for all the lambs and wolves to live together in peace and pleasure w/ one another - yet how could any wolf survive w/out the suffering of a lamb?
you deem life 'inferior' and 'loathsome' because it does contain suffering - and want another life w/out acceptance of this true reality.
- - - there is a desert with no water. there is a river 5 miles away. now you can sit in the desert and hunger for water and wonder why it's all dry and wish that the desert was closer to the river - but that ain't gonna make it happen. but if you build a dam or build a very long pipe, the river can come to desert and plenish it. then be joyous of the accomplishment of the dam, not of either the desert or the water.
whatever - take care and i wish you the best {really}.