(((Mowtown))),

You got some good advice here. PTSD does have a tendency of leading the person struggling with it to experience this sense of fear and powerlessness, I experience this myself, it is hard for me because of the ongoing situation I have been in that keeps that present in my life.

I think that just having a regular therapist and not a therapist who is a trauma specialist that really understands how PTSD can present these feelings is not helping you. I can see by the way you responded to the material I presented that you do relate to symptoms, they make sense to you and now you need a therapist who knows this as well and is equipped to help you understand it better "and" learn ways to overcome these symptoms.

You are struggling with what your rational mind is seeing verses your emotional confusion but also "how" you have been injured that needs "healing".