I agree with Zinco's post. It sounds like you need to treat the anxiety and panic attacks with medication and therapy which would mean going to a psychiatrist and therapist. I have suffered all three in the past year. It has been my experience that anxiety and panic attacks have led me into a state of chronic severe depression. I have recently started treatment from a psychiatrist and a therapist for this. I would think you deserve to have a fulfilled life without panic, anxiety, or depression. I would recommend professional treatment for this condition. Take it one step at a time and best wishes.