((((((((((Canders))))))))))) It's going to be okay, you're not alone. You have all of us here on PC.
We all mess up and make mistakes-I don't know what you're referring to but I'm sure you had no intentions of making anyone hurt or feel bad. And you're not screwed up, you're probably just confused. It's okay if you're confused-I think almost everyone is.
I hope you're feeling better soon.