I am sorry that you are struggling right now. it is sad that he just ceased contact with no explanation. it just seems unfair to not have answers or closure in a relationship. unfortunately if this is the first time for love, it is the first of many heartbreaks for you. you take the good memories of each relationship and learn from them. learn what you want and don't want our of a man so that you can find the perfect one to spend the rest of your life with. I know that doesn't make sense or offer you any comfort now. it will get better for you and you will find love again. take care.