I feel like I am more or less over this but I saw my ex bf the other day and it was the closest encounter I had since I plucked up the courage to leave him almost 2 years ago. When I saw him I felt all sick in the stomach and a little nervous (I was with my current bf and he told me not to worry etc) But it was hard because of the abuse I put up with him. He'd constantly put me down, yell at me for no reason, I became very quiet and withdrawn and scared to even talk for the fear of what he'd say to me. He never actually hit me but I think if i stayed longer it could have been possible. He'd also blackmail me into having sex with him. So seeing him was a big thing, I know I am better off now and I think I can deal with it. I just feel sorry for the girls that would be getting that treatment these days