I agree with kaliope, and yes it is hard to have someone you love just turn their back on you. You have every reason to feel the heartbreak you do....please, tho, remember. It does get better. Not right away, but it will. I'm an old duck and have been down that thorny patch so many times; even tho I damned each hurt as it did, later, I was and am able to look at them as not just life lessons but experiences which have created the person I am, and that it was my responsibility not to let them sour me to other experiences..either because of hurt or anger or resentment...........or fear.

Cry now as you need to...and run also ( I did a LOT of running this last break up and it helped center me, helped me focus on something other than the hurt). Remember, it does get better.

Wishing you much care and affection