I know. I really need a HUGE emotional boost. I wish I was happy so maybe I'd feel like we were a normal couple. Then maybe I'd feel and be more sucessful than I am now.

Also, a while ago he didn't have a problem with my low self-esteem (well, now atleast I think he doesn't care). He used to help me plan things, make better decissions, etc. Then MANY people felt he was controlling. Now that he's not doing that I feel like he doesn't care, but then that gives people the impression of him being a controlling boyfriend.