- Who deserves to be happy, who doesn't?
- Who is perfect? Are you really a perfectionist?
You may have the wrong answers to all these questions. You simply have so many misconceptions.

I think the problem here is that you're too afraid to get judged, you're taking insufficient actions. You are not trying enough.

I would say crash straight into the things you need to do now, be it a success or failure; and you will learn, you will improve. Otherwise, you would just be getting left further and further behind.