We were driving in the car heading out on a grand adventure, a weekend to ourselves with no kids. I don't even remember how the conversation lead to it but I said I still have a mark right above my knee where I jammed myself with a pencil and the lead stuck in. He said quietly "You did it on purpose." I said "Yeah". That was it, we went on to other topics and had a great weekend. But that moment was special to me because that was the first time he has ever voiced his awareness of my self injury. First time he allowed himself to contemplate it and to confirm that his thoughts were correct. It made me feel warm, like I do have a partner who wants to try to understand so he can help me get past this.
Carrie
<font color=blue>The important thing is this: to be able at any momeent to sacrifice what we are for what we could become.--Charles Du Bos
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