I rely so heavily on logic to function... But when the emotions get the upper hand I just fall into a spiral of confusion and self hate. It's something my T and I have been working on unravelling for a while now and as she put it my emotional development is stunted from early trauma. There has been a recent development of possible aspergers but that is early stages and yet to be screened.

I can't say I am ever really angry at others... It's the context that I messed up in some way and failed to seem normal, to fit in.