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Nat92 · Jul 13, 2014, 05:59 AM

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Originally Posted by glok

Hello, Nat92. The friend does not seem to be the problem. The strained relationship with your ex is.

Perhaps you're right, though there's nothing I can do to change it. He walked, came back, wanted to be friends, I couldn't, so I erased him as much as I could. Thing is, I'm surprised they even started talking, my friend and him.

I still feel everything was left scattered out on the floor and I have more questions than answers, but I'm trying so hard to move on, but it's like dragging this huge iron ball chained to my ankle and I'm just ignoring it.

It really really really angers me that he's still there, because I so want him to just go away. I know I should accept it and I think I have, perhaps just not in the right way. I should make peace with it, I'm convincing myself that I have and that it doesn't bother me anymore.

I haven't even done what most would do, looked him up on Facebook. The urge isn't there, I don't think about him 24/7, I don't cry, I don't feel sad. I just feel like I'm in this weird place, at a stage where I didn't think to find myself. I do dream about him, but that's not something I control.

My friend did say he asked how I was, which really surprised me. But I'm not reading into it, I know it's normal, I asked about him too.