Most financial assistance is available from the city or state in which you reside -google assistance and the name of the state and city. Food stamps are also available - google applying for food stamps. You could qualify for disability insurance from the social security administration. Social Security Disability Benefits - Online Application Information
Unfortunately or fortunately, we define our own self worth, not other people.
Local food banks and free meals are available.
What about stopping crying in your room and find something to do. I saw a person that would go for a walk everyday and fill up a trash bag with recyclable cans and another one for trash. You set the mark for yourself. You determine what is successful. Members of PC applaud anyone who tries to make their life a little better.