what would you like society to do for you? you can't find a job sitting in your room crying - you HAVE to get out there and look for funding. if you're in america go to your county human services facility. at the college see if there are any work-study programs. obviously, you are not as bad off as some other people - because you have a room to cry in and a computer to write stuff on. you must first care about yourself. society helps the ones who help themselves. if you need structure - join the military - there you will get training, an education and money - and you won't have to worry about your sister cause you will be away from her and your dad.