Do get support for yourself (a pregnant mom's group/activities with others with your daughter/whether story time at a library, a mom and kid exercise/swim program/special walks/activities together/a therapist just for You.)---We tend to repeat patterns even when they are not healthy---it is such a hard place to be in. I am glad you feel that you are a good and loving person, that you are lonely but not allowing your partner to dictate your self-worth (which will happen if you let it....) I don't know if he is willing to change...but you can change what you do----easier said than done, especially with so much responsibility, and the lost dreams/hopes/the revival of hope, and the dashing...Take good care of yourself & your children, you won't regret that. (((((hug)))))