I would like to say thank you for the support and encouragement. I am not sure what has happened tonight, I was feeling more down then I have in a long time.
But something snapped in my head. I started laughing and feeling better. I have regained my strength to stand up and decided I an not going to let things get me down so much.
Everything happens for a reason. Maybe the past few months was a reminder of what I have fought long and hard for to achieve. My self respect and self worth.
I have allowed people to walk all over me and take full advantage of me since my grandmother passed away. I might be totally crazy but I can feel my grandmother here with me coaching me to go on.
I will be seeing the doctor on Friday and will discuss other options. I will be bold and blunt with her. I will let her know what is going on in my head. What I have been hiding from people for many years.
I just hope I am on the way to recovery and not ready to take a major fall.