Hey freefallin. I'm sorry you're not getting what you need from the other comments. Please don't take it too much to heart. Sometimes people give advice that they think is helpful, but it might not actually be for the particular situation or person.

I agree that you might want to look into free help in your area. Most places do have some kind of free support. You might even call around at the places that charge and see if they can give you a referral.

I understand how hard it can be to be depressed, and trying to dig your way out of this messed up situation at the same time can't be easy. Have you thought about doing some volunteer work? I'm suggesting this because it would be easier to find than a job, it would get you out of the house for a while, it would give you a schedule, and it might also help you find a sense of purpose. Of course you need to find a job, but volunteering even just a few hours a week might help in the meantime.

Take care of yourself.

(Also, I just got to say, period blood? Feces in the shower? Damn, that's so messed up.)