I'm just curious to know how many people actually believe when they're told or have told someone that "things will get better". I really don't mean to sound so pessimistic... maybe it's just because I'm in such a 'bitter' mood, but as I've mentioned before I've been battling severe depression since I was about 11 or 12 and well I just turned 23 last week. Being miserable and down is all I know.... I can't imagine a life without these feelings. I used to be the person who said 'things will eventually get better', but now I feel like I'm kidding myself.

I've spent the last 12 years filling my head with false hope... I can't bear to think that the next 10 years or so will be the same. I still use the phrase (things will get better) to my mom all the time and it seems to give her that extra oomph she needs to get through the day, but when I said this to her tonight she said, 'thanks' but her facial expression was unmoved... it's as if she finally believed that they're just words... it really broke my heart... a little more...