Hello Beehugger, sorry to hear you going through so much. When I was married and going through horrific depression I found out after the divorce that my ex had been going through terrible depression also. I was so wrapped up in my own misery it was hard to see other's troubles. My children, wife, and the rest of my family suffered. This might not be the case with you so don't get upset, it's just something to consider. Best of luck to you okay? Take care and I'll be rooting for you.