Today has been a day.

I woke up feeling badly. Very down. Seems to be a new thing for me. The mornings seem to be when I am getting the worse of the sadness and depression. Its when I feel the most alone.

I have been coping with it. Not letting the feelings rule me. Doing that just allows the day to improve. But today it didn't work. And the day seemed to just melt down. Several things went wrong. Got a call from work that may cause me to have to work tonight and the sales rep will make money while I do all of the work. My car died on the side of the road. I fixed the problem, but the fact it did just really hit a nerve.

I truly see that it could be a lot worse and I keep telling myself that, but it doesn't help. Dear lord why does it pile up like this?? And what can someone do to keep from just running off to never be heard from again. My life seems to be nothing but loneliness, work, and responsibilities.

Just gets old...

Hope you all find your happy today.