Different meds help for different people, and that's really going to be up to you and your doctor to figure out. Every case is different, especially if there are other factors (like me, for instance; I have this wonderful thing called CPTSD and Major Depressive Disorder as well as BPD, so I've had a virtual cornucopia of medications over the years before finding the cocktail that "works" for me).

Getting the diagnosis was sort of like having one weight lifted off of my shoulders while getting another one dropped on me at the same time, but that's mainly because I had never heard of BPD before. But... at least I was able to finally start getting the appropriate type of therapy, and for me, that was much better than the medication.

I'm sorry you hurt yourself last night. I did that to myself about a month or so ago after going a little over a year. I'm not here to judge, but let's hope we can both last at LEAST another 5 years before something like that ever happens again.

Anyhow, I'm glad you're here.