I am having some struggles in therapy, I been with the same T for almost a year. I like her and feel like I trust her. However, I can't express any emotions to her. For my entire life I been denied free expression of my emotions, now that I am aware and free from that part of me, I am still having extreme struggles with expressing myself to her about what I am feeling, even what I am thinking. It is ridiculous. She has been very helpful over the past year but I don't feel like she completely understanding me, and when I can't express myself, how can I expect her to understand. I only trust her and will never reveal my past to any one. The whole experience has been very confusing and has caused me high anxiety. But I am too far into it to back out of it, once your aware of what has transpired in your past, you can't just bury again. It's there everyday in my face. I feel so alone and so numb with all of this.