Just throwing this out there. My whole life, I have never asked anyone for help. Last year was the first time I asked, lost it, got so called diagnosed with this ****. Tried DBT, couldn't do it due to being triggered by others, and having a hard time trying to change my f***king thoughts. Therapist tried helping but I think they made it worse by rushing everything, not seeing the whole picture. Of course I feel abandoned now. I feel like such a loser because I keep running away because I don't know how else to deal with all this. Now trying to get on proper meds, going back to see psychiatrist (as mentioned in previous post) but the thing that is messing me up is I feel like in their eyes they're thinking she's fine..nothing wrong with her. But I know my head is so far gone...just done...don't want to continue this way. Should I tell them this? I can't shake this awful feeling of feeling I don't belong in this world.