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Old Jul 14, 2014, 05:01 AM
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I really don't know what to say. It's easier to type rather than in person that's for sure. Hello everyone. [edited by mod] but please call me Rob or Robbie. I'm a 51 year old man who is most certainly bipolar. I live in Lincolnshire and so far have had little professional help. Sadly my trust in out local psychiatrist along with his Mental Health Team fell by the wayside though recently I have decided to give another go to rebuilding any trust that was lost.


On my first appointment with the psychiatrist he immediately increased my doses of Venlafaxine to 300mg. When I approached my G.P. I was advised the safe level was 225mg which I was already on. As my GP has witnessed my down times shall we say I trusted him rather than what I perceived to be a fool who was dishing out antidepressants willy nilly. I began to talk total rubbish to him throughout that one hour appointment just to get out.


Was I wrong? I mean should I trust a man who appeared to know arrogantly know me, what I go through and what I have been through after one hour who increase doses above recommended levels or a man as my G.P who knows everything?


All trust I was building was dashed and I lashed out. Now I know that was wrong in itself. They thought they knew me so well after one hour, better than I know myself.


They were so wrong.


I began a journey of self preservation and self discovery and wrote everything down from before I could remember in the hope I could find and face my inner demons head on. I even published it on Kindle in the hope someone would find and read it and offer me a way forward. I thought it would help but ...


This time I was wrong!


Now my life is out there for the world to scrutinize. It was the worst thing I could have done and I am not here to publicize it further that's for sure.


I am the freak my mother and family always claimed I was. I'm no further forward and the condition continues to remain within.


I'm hoping forums like this can help me in some small way and I am looking forward to reading posts, but not today. I'm a little down right now.


And so to end...


I lock myself away from society, rarely if ever venturing out of my home and this typing and seeing on screen lark seems to look promising - for me. I live a solitary life indeed with a partner of 23 years and 13 dogs. They are the only ones that give me any comfort or feeling of safety these days.


Sadly I also own a very volatile temper, normally verbal but physical has come to the surface on a couple of occasions. After 51 years I feel being locked away at home is best for me.


I do feel like a freak after being called one from ever since I can remember and really feel society is a better place without me right now. Why am I saying all this? What am I doing? Sorry


I'm sure I'll partake soon, just not yet.


Kindest regards


Rob


xxx

I looked up venlafaxine on my medical app, and the max daily dose is 375 mg for depression, 225 mg for anxiety. So you should be safe at 300 mg. i'm an NP, so i have a membership to the same app that doctors use, so the info is definitely accurate and current. i hope that helps.
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